i never had insecutiry issues that bad..until a few years ago...when ppl yell at me i assume they just dont like me. im very handsome, and a great person to be around. i just happen to be insecure about my name i feel that i dont get respect casue i have a weak name . it sounds stupid but not to me...i am thinking about changing my name cause i feel like its causing me unwanted stress, and disrespect, and ppl to walk all over me and to take advantage of me...when i know if i had a better name these issue would be so bad..anyway my insecuirty about my name has grown into negative thoughts about ppl around me that dont like me cause of my name...which is def stupid but it has grown into a bigger insecuirty and cuses me to feel defensive, and feel like im less than other ppl,,,and the underdog..i always feel ike im trying harder to gain ppls friendship but going out of my way so they will stick around longer....i meet ppl all the time and keep friendships but sometimes they dont last longer than 2 years. when there was no reason for this...i am one of the nicest ppl on this earth. i never hurt anybody emotionally...do i take what ppl say to literally? i am not depressed or have any mental problems..i have some depression but overcome that when i moved to florida. anwyay. i just wish i could have some advice to beat this demon thats causing me to get too defensie and angry when i shouldnt be taking everything so personal when i know that it cant be me. it has to be the persons mental state or the emotional unstability. thanks