Hello, I am "A" that's what most of the people call me. I am currently a student of IT and preMed (actually i am having hard time to deal with IT[Information Technology] course because I dont know, if I am having trauma dealing with things in my school where I took it.) In my preMed, i took off for 2 months because of classmates issues ( i took off because of this stupid classmate that i am having hard time to deal with, and because shes too much stress to take i took my vacation, the last time that we confronted i almost punched her but good was that i took over and went out to smoke(i quitted smoking 1 year before).
As for my childhood, I am a battered child. I am the eldest. and my father is a devil. My mom is an angel, who right now is in other country working hard for us to live.
SO my problem is that, WHENEVER I am pressured, angry, sad, ignored, rejected I lash out sometimes walkout and tend to go back smoking.
Whenever I am called FAT, I tend to punch the person who called me but always good that I can control
But there are times that when my feeling/emotions that I cant deal because I am having hard time to deal with it. Or just that I dont have anything or in mind where to put it, so I cut myself and tryin to be better.
I am having a hard time socializing especially being friendly to the people around me. Because I dont know how.
Sometimes I even see myself emotionally unstable.
As for my childhood, I am a battered child. I am the eldest. and my father is a devil. My mom is an angel, who right now is in other country working hard for us to live.
SO my problem is that, WHENEVER I am pressured, angry, sad, ignored, rejected I lash out sometimes walkout and tend to go back smoking.
Whenever I am called FAT, I tend to punch the person who called me but always good that I can control
But there are times that when my feeling/emotions that I cant deal because I am having hard time to deal with it. Or just that I dont have anything or in mind where to put it, so I cut myself and tryin to be better.
I am having a hard time socializing especially being friendly to the people around me. Because I dont know how.
Sometimes I even see myself emotionally unstable.