For a few years now I've become interested in Sociopaths, and I'm starting to wonder if there's a reason why.
When I'm making decisions, I think about the consequences of my actions. Then when I disappoint someone, I worry more about getting in trouble for another little scheme I've got going on instead of feeling "guilty" for what I've done.
I've never really based my decisions on how they might affect others, but I know I should. I THINK that I care about others? But I don't know. I'm in a relationship now, but I don't really know why, seeing as the relationship is obviously terminal. I do know I've always wanted to date a guy who's attractive and such, but I never thought of that as particularly shallow.
Back to guilt and remorse though, I don't really know that I've felt it. It's strange, I don't cry about death. Well, apart from when I'm asked to talk about the fact that my boyfriend is dying, and then I might get some tears, but I'm not sure if they're real.
Basically, I'm wondering if I'm just a Neurotic worrier, or possibly a Sociopath.