I am 20years old female. And i am having mood swings very often and i dont have friends because i dont have them anymore. Plus I even forgot how to socialize i just show them what they want to see , but i dont want that because i just wanna be me. There are times that when i get mad, pressured,sad, etc. I tend to go so uneasy and attack people that made me felt it but i can control it the thing is if i cant make the feelings go away i cut myself and that makes me feel just a liitle better. And having the strong urge to go back to smoking again. And i have a friend who called me fat and that is making me awake for 42hours now. Anybody?