I am female. I have had a lot of medical history within the past three years. The first time was when I was 13, and had to stay in the hospital for a month after a severe stroke. I made a full recovery, and even feel the experience was good for me, as it helped bring me out of my shell and into the social world. As a result of the stroke, it was decided I had too thick of blood, a disorder from my dad’s side. I started taking blood thinner regularly, as prescribed by my doctor. Then when I was 14 I had to return to the same hospital for an unrelated reason. Again, my stay was for one month. There was much less improvement in this one. During my stay, my mother had her hair turn from brown to gray, and everyone I cared about was very stressed out. I was states away from my home. There was A LOT more blood loss on my part in this stay(I ended up with 20 something transfusions by the time it was over), and I’ll tell you right now, I was and still am a hemophobic. A lot of my hair fell out for what I can only assume to be stress related reasons. I was very miserable. Finally, I had to receive an ectomy after weeks of failed recovery anyway. At some point after the ectomy, I think went a bit crazy. There was one occasion where I just started laughing at a TOTALLY inappropriate time. They had already weaned me off IV medication. The stitches on my stomach weren’t working due to my thin blood. So, surgeons were soldering my gaping wound, I was conscious, I had no pain medication making me loopy, and I just started laughing like a madman.
It’s been two years since that whole incident now. My fear of blood has increased to the point where I swoon at the sight of another’s cut. My home life is no walk in the park, as my parents are constantly raising their voices at one another. I cry VERY easily now. On top of all else, whenever I am placed under a stressful situation or am physical feeling pain, I find myself laughing hysterically like that night two years ago.
What exactly is wrong with me? Is it just stress, or what?